Back to earth

I know that I have been really up in the air lately and that I have so many plans in my head, but I am happy that I was brought back to earth yesterday and face everything one thing at a time. Even though there is a lot to face, but I really believe that if I rely on His strength, there's nothing that I can't do because everything is for Him and He will definitely provide. I just got to worry about my part, do one thing at a time and perform the best that I can. A new week has started already, and this week won't be any easier than last week, but I am ready to face it and I know that I am equipped to do it too. I am not afraid cause He is my rock and I'll show the world how reliable He is and how he can make the impossible possible. So, off I go! =D

"I lift up my eyes to the hills—where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. " psalm 121

He is faithful.

Dear blog,

Time passes so fast and this week just flew by so quickly. Today I will serve wholeheartedly and I give Him everything that I have. I emailed everyone about the youth fellowship, but I still have got no replies from any co-workers, only from my own friends that encourage me and support me. Even though that it feels like I am all alone in all this, but I know that God has His timing and he will make the wisest decision when the time comes. I completely leave everything under His care and I know that he is faithful. I can feel His presence and I am at peace and joyful. I have a feeling that February is going to be really tough and I have a really strong feeling that something bad might just happen at my busiest time, but I just need to cling to God and He will be there to catch me if ever I fall. I know that I have been recently putting on a lot of time in friends, service, and haven't really worried too much of my academic work. So this upcoming week, I will focus on that and perform the best that I possibly can.

Concerning going back home, I really don't know what to do about it anymore, I just learnt that my exam has advanced a week, so that makes it impossible for me to go back home that weekend. But I know that they are well and I will keep them in my prayers.

Ever since the last talk that I had with po, I feel like I am willing to understand him more and worry less about my selfish needs. Before, I always get grumpy when I don't get what I want, but now, I am happy to do what he wants, cause now I understand why he makes those decisions, and most of the time, even if i don't want to admit it, they are wiser than mine.

one more challenge down!

Get along with his friends - Check!

=)

So happy!

Hi bloggybird! haha Today I am extremely happy! Nothing special happened, but I'm just feeling awesome! I woke up before my alarm again and I was able to reply patiently to all of my emails while putting lots of thoughts into them. Before leaving home I was able to do so much things that I never thought I was able to do in the short period of time in the morning before leaving for class. At school, it was all things I already know, but it still went by really fast, cause I wrote down everything that the prof said anyways. I didn't have class this afternoon so I had a lot of choices in deciding what I want to do and where I want to do for the rest of the day. So I decided to go to Rockland, and purchased my tennis racket! =D The guy that was selling me the racket was a tennis coach! So he knew his stuff! I sounded once again totally retarded in Sport Expert. haha.. Then, I went to have lunch and study at the food court, I was able to get half of what I've planned done before I felt really sleepy (maybe cause I ate too much at lunch) so I wanted to go back home, but my bus only came in 30min, so I got myself a pair of gloves! =D My hands will no more freeze outside! After I got home, I received many emails from the ppl that I messaged this morning, and they are so encouraging. I love my friends, church, sisters in Christ, everyone so much! God blessed me so much with these people and I am so happy! On top of that, the day is not over yet, I can still do so much things. Today, I learnt that it's good to have determination in accomplishing one's goal, but what's even more important than that is self-discipline, it is the reason why most of the people have dreams, but fail. Self-discipline is against our own will and it's often not the easy way around, so we always manage to avoid it, but then we fail at achieving the goal. God is faithful, and His grace is more than sufficient.

Awake

I didn't feel like waking up this morning cause I was so incredibly tired, but after getting up, I feel more refreshed than ever. I know that whatever the outcomes, I'll keep up what I have planned and work hard to achieve my goals. I won't allow me disappointing myself. That's pretty much all I can come up with now, the rest of things are all just a blur. Not sure of what love is anymore, nor what compability is no more.. Everything that I was certain that I know what they are stop making sense. So right now, since I am very uncertain, I will make sure that I just stick to one thing and try my best to make it right. God will take care of everything, I just have to work hard.

God's strength won't disappoint me either.

New day

Dear blog, I've been very emo last week and had lots of mood swing, but I don't want things that way now. I like my life being organized cause I like seeing things getting done. So this week, I'll really focus on all the things that I have to do, and do them perfectly instead of wasting time complaining about everything. I got to start doing things out of my own initiatives if I want to achieve anything. I hope that this resolution will last and that I will be able to reach the goals that I've set for myself.

Another thing that I learnt recently is that blogging does good to me but also bad. I got to avoid thinking too much and making my life a living drama. So from now on, I'm just gonna report whatever that is on my mind and in what state I am in instead of pushing it further. As a girl and as being myself, I know that I tend to make things too complicated when I think too much, so that's why I want to do it this way. =D So basically, my blogs will be short and clean, no extra blah, no write just to write something anymore.

Today feels like a good day. =)